Where We Are

Tom started another semester of grad school yesterday. He is taking just one class that is partially online and requires him to drive to St. Paul every other Monday. The class is Project Management which is a little funny because he is a project manager. The class went around and introduced themselves and their job titles and he was the only project manager in the project management class. We had to laugh about that. He only has one more class after this semester and then he will graduate with his MBA in May. It's been a long journey, full of many sacrifices and we can't wait for him to be finished! It will mean a lot more time together and no more paying for tuition and books!! Yay! I have this vision of him in his graduation garb, holding Weston and smiling. I will be taking that picture in just 9 months :)
Since Tom had to drive to St. Paul straight from work to get to class, that meant he needed to take the Monte. This left me at home with the baby and no transportation from about 7 am until 10 pm. Weston and I had a nice time (though I began to go a little stir crazy). I got caught up on scrap booking, we went for a walk, he had a bath, I cleaned the kitchen, cooked our next few meals, and spent time cuddling with my baby. In short, I played the role of domestic goddess for the day. Though I enjoyed my day and would love to make everyday like yesterday, I have to start looking for jobs more fervently. I applied for three jobs on Sunday. My goal is to spend an hour a day searching and applying. I would love to be able to spend each day at home with Weston but it isn't financially possible right now. I spend the day playing emotional roulette with myself as I worry about how long it will be before I am contributing to our income again. Some hours I feel fine and I believe I will find something soon and other other hours I turn into a weepy worry wart, convinced that it will take too long for me to find something and we will plow through our savings and find ourselves in a terrible situation. So if I seem a little on edge lately, it is because I am! My job right now is to find a job and to find every possible way to cut back on our expenses. The latter is tough because we were pretty much doing that already.
So...that's where we are right now. Tom is working long hours, studying hard, and preparing for the travel season at work which is due to start in late September. I'm at home, trying desperately to find a job, even though my heart wants to be at home with Weston. I know it will work out one way or another, but that doesn't mean it's going to be easy!